You say you are confused between christianity and atheism
Then you ask a lot of questions specifically requiring scientific answers, but ask none from christianity
Why is this?
Surely if you are confused then you should be asking questions on both sides?
For example - from christianity you COULD ask
1) where did this entity exist before the big bang?
2) WAS there a "before" the big bang?
3) If "nowhere" existed before the big bang, then where did this entity exist?
4) if "nowhere" existed then how did this entity manage to create "somewhere" (i.e our universe) in "nowhere" ?
4) how did this entity violate the 1st law of thermodynamics?
5) how did this entity create the universe?
And of course you COULD ask for evidence for each of these questions.
But you didnt
(and surely with all those "christians" out there one of them MUST have some ideas as to the answers to these questions)
Science has a lot of answers but not answers to everything - YET -
but at least is trying to find the answers
But on the other hand all christianity has to offer by way of explanation is - "it was all done by magic" and there it stops.
No attempt to actually answer anything, and no attempt to find the answers - "magic" being christianity's answer to everything
If you are REALLY interested in science - then there are loads of books that can explain things a lot easier than can be done on YA
And if you had taken the trouble to read them you would not be asking the questions you did (cos a lot show an ignorance of even the basic facts of the big bang theory)
And one thing to bear in mind
"christianity" is not the default answer
that is - it aint the case that if science aint got the answer then it must be christianity
Only the stupid would assume this was the case (but this is the one theists try to push onto the uneducated or less intelligent)
"I dont know" is a perfectly good answer and is the only valid one if both science AND christianity dont provide an answer
And since to date christianity has never provided any actual answers except "it was all done by magic", then if science aint got the answer then the position SHOULD be "I dont know"
So unless unless you regard "magic" as a valid answer there is nothing to be "confused" about , in which case your questions are irrelevent (cos this would show you start with an assumption "goddidit" unless someone can prove otherwise, and "I dont know" is not part of your vocabulary)
(And maybe I'm wrong but something tells me you aint interested in scientific answers)